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Sunday, January 27, 2013

Rescue Your Time By Knowing Where You Spend It

I installed the program RescueTime recently to try and track my activities on a normal day. I didn't change my routine by much. I allowed myself to get on my usual social networking sites and art accounts, just to see how naturally I tend to spend time on them.


Whoops.

Based on the data it gathered, I'm only 55% productive, which is an eye-opener. I'm a little surprised at how I'm unproductive on Weekdays. I think that's because I'm usually out for grad school...

I need to tweak the settings a little more. For example, it doesn't log my short breaks with a particular game as 'unproductive'. I checked its analysis of the sites and apps I frequently open. To my delight, Photoshop was at the top of the list, since I've been drawing every day. To my horror, Facebook and Tumblr were next in line. Granted, I post my daily work for Doodle a Day on our tumblr account, but this makes me wonder if I should nest my drawings and post them in one go... the problem with that is that I tend to get lazy and not go through with it since I've left them laying around for so long.

I'll let this program run another week and see if anything changes. :) This definitely means I have to fix my habits that are so automatic that I don't even notice I'm typing the URLs and checking the pages for the nth time.

- Mel

Friday, January 25, 2013

Yua Redesigned


I drew this for Doodle a Day yesterday. :) It's kind of refreshing to revisit my teenage-dom as an adult. Here, I redesigned one of my Ragnarok Online characters, Yua.

If you'd like to see more of my daily doodles, please follow Doodle a Day on tumblr. :)

- Mel

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Cleanliness and Productivity

I think it's true that having a cleaner environment helps you focus on your work.

Case in point: I finally reformatted my laptop, Lumi, and cleaned her on the surface as well. Even gave the keyboard shield a much needed bath, even if the poor thing has a hole where my pinky's long nail stabbed it by accident. Granted, I should have cleaned her much earlier and at more frequent intervals, and I haven't been the best caretaker since I didn't avail of a case (I thought the aluminum finish was such a waste if I was to hide it in a, frankly, ugly plastic transparent shell), but I've rectified that now.

I cleaned my work tablet today as well, and by tablet, I don't mean those newfangled iPads, I mean my drawing tablet.

But it seemed like such a waste if I was going to put shiny-like-new Lumi back on the dirty desk. I got frustrated that I didn't know where to put all the stuff that was there, too. So... I pretty much cleared it all off and wiped it down with vinegar and olive oil. Seems to have worked, though I still have to decide what to do with the stuff I swiped off. At least my old and ailing work desk looks so shiny now. :)


Ahhhh... perfect place to study, too... though I could do without the pesky mosquitoes. Ah, but speaking of studying... I have a growing pile of schoolwork. ;) Tata for now!

- Mel

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Woops, missed a post.

So I effectively spent the entire weekend fixing my hard drive and reformatting my laptop. I was so tired and ran out of time that I fell asleep before I could write a post for the day. Gosh.

But now that I've got my laptop set up again, I'm ready to go! :)

It's been raining a lot here recently. The December weather has been delayed and seems to have only arrived now. I wonder what its fashion emergency was? It's a welcome change from the unbearable heat we've been enduring. However, my mom is afraid that our summer will be scorching hot in contrast. I hope that won't be the case.

Time to catch up on stuff!

- Mel

Monday, January 21, 2013

Hard Drive Status Update 2

Amazing how much trying to fix electronics affects my blogging :P

I managed to get most of my files off of the hard drive by using Linux, though I had to give up my Games folder as it was taking way too long for all of it to copy. No worries. I can always get them again where I got them in the first place: on the internet. :D Lots of free games I could peruse. :) Besides, I'd been meaning to free up more space by throwing out some files, anyway.

I've made at least 3 back-ups of my most important files and am just waiting for my Mountain Lion OS X Installer finish downloading. Going to reformat my laptop to see if it helps it run any faster. It's been about 3 years and a half since I bought it. :) Wish me luck.

- Mel

Sunday, January 20, 2013

External Hard Drive Status

I was able to access my files through Linux (via Parallels Desktop), but then found that when I transferred them to my Mac partition, they were corrupted. It wasn't that big a blow, though, since I've learned to let go of my attachments to files, and thankfully, most of the ones on it weren't that important, or ones that I could re-download.

Only slightly disappointed, I was about to format my external drive, when I noticed something odd: I could still open some of the image files while in Linux. I tested a .pdf file by transferring it to a USB stick, and what do you know: I could still open it!

Encouraged, I'm now trying to transfer the files to my other hard drive. Here's hoping they work! Cross your fingers!

- Mel

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Hard Drive Failure

Sorry for the short post today. One of my Western Digital hard drives is refusing to mount on my laptop and it's draining my energy. While I don't think I left anything that important in it (since I kept most everything on my laptop, and another back-up hard drive), it's kind of sad if this one bites the dust. I'm not sure what may still be hiding in it. Here's hoping it revives itself so I can at least peek at what I may be leaving behind.

- Mel

Friday, January 18, 2013

On Art Therapy and Loving Yourself

My day ended on a sour note because of an encounter with an aggravating person.

I have a short fuse, and I had to count to ten and not move for several seconds to let the anger seep out of me slowly. There were so many things I wanted to say, so many things I wanted to do to them, including getting up from my chair and smacking them in the face. I managed to cool off, but it dampened my mood for the rest of the evening.

I used to be a much less pacifist kid, especially since I was bullied a lot both in and out of school. Books were my weapon of choice. I regret that now, of course, but I didn't know any better. What I have to resist now is letting a slew of hurtful words fly past my lips when someone has wronged me. While some people would suggest imagining the Horrible Person being tormented and tortured in gruesome ways, it doesn't really help me feel any better in the long run. I don't want to harbour resentment for other people. It's not worth my time and energy to focus it all on negative emotions all the time, including the part where I try to quell my rage.

Art therapy worked for me today. Instead of the dark and angsty doodles my adolescent self was wont to draw in her worst moments (including but not limited to violent scenes against All Who Have Wronged Her!), I drew myself as a confident lady. When I say confident, I mean it was the first time I drew myself with a more faithful representation of my body. Yes, that includes my fat and my assets (the latter is both a blessing and a curse.)

My art for Day 17 of Doodle a Day
I'm really happy with how this came up, especially since I was having those pesky artist doubts (I can't pull this off! I'm a sucky artist!) Yet I pressed on even if I wasn't sure what I was doing, and I ended up becoming much more confident as an artist, too. I accept my body, and I love my body.

I feel a lot better having decided to direct all my remaining energy towards more positive pursuits, rather than wallow in negative emotions. This isn't an easy thing to do for someone like me who has depression and anxiety, but when I'm able to do it, it feels incredibly fulfilling.

At the end of even the crappiest of days, a little self-love goes a long way. :)

- Mel

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Being Professional is Hard

I spend most of today revising my Terms of Service for taking personal private commissions. I must have referenced the T.O.S.'s of a dozen artists before finally coming up with a format I liked that contained all the information I think an interested client would want to know. I still have to revise my Pricing page, but it's still a step in the right direction.

I could just stick with my Commission Info the way it is now, but that would be lazy of me. Besides, why would a client want to work with me if my information is all over the place? If I were to avail of anyone's services, I would want a clear, concise page that would answer most, if not all, of my questions.

Do for your buyer what you would want another seller to do for you.

- Mel

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

On Not Blurting Out Your Goals

In my last entry, I mentioned that perhaps Keeping Your Goals to Yourself would help you actually achieve things rather than pretend you're doing something.

While spending time with my friends after class, I would stop myself whenever I thought of telling someone what I was going to do for the rest of the day. I would also zip my lips when I wanted to talk about any of my supposed ideas or projects. What surprised me was how often I had to catch myself so that I wouldn't spill whatever it was I was working on. Did I really say things but not do them that often? What an eye-opener!

This blog in particular is actually something I've kept secret from everyone for now, at least until I build up a big enough archive. It's not necessarily secret in that I hide it from everyone... I just haven't announced it publicly yet. I didn't keep it to myself because of the video, though. I did it because I didn't want to let anyone see it until I had put enough work into it to make it presentable, until it actually had enough content to be of value. I had done that mistake with my self-improvement blog, Kasiyahan, announcing it before it had enough posts to stand on its own.

So far, it seems to be working. I've been posting every day for what will be 11 days now, which is a feat for me. Sure, I've done National Blog Posting Month once before, but that was with a challenge in mind. I wonder if I can struggle past 31 posts this time out of pure self-motivation?

That isn't to say that you can't soundboard ideas with friends, though. I think this pertains more to actual projects that you want to make into reality. I'm sure most of us all have our daydreams, and the ratio of Ideas vs. Ideas Fulfilled leans more toward the former. It becomes even smaller if you split it into Fulfilled Successfully vs. Tried but Failed.

For now, keeping my goals to myself is working well so far. The only person I have to answer to, besides the people I owe obligations to, is myself... and I don't want to disappoint myself any longer.

- Mel

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Take Care of Your Things and Yourself

I washed my self-healing cutting mat today after who-knows-how-long of its existence, and it felt so nice to feel the water on it as I washed it in the sink. It felt like I was bathing a pet or something... except it's inanimate and Not a Pet.

Unfortunately, it has quite a lot of cuts and scruffs since I got it in 2007 for my freshman year of art college. I didn't know any better about taking care of it, so I cut in the same areas a lot. Once, I went to the bookstore intending to buy a replacement with my own hard-earned money, but when I saw the high price tag, I decided I should make the most out of the one I have. We'll see how much longer it will last. To be fair, it has served me well. :)

This should teach me to take better care of my stuff, especially the equipment and tools I use for money-generating art ventures. I usually take utmost care of an item the first few weeks that I obtain it. Once I've had it long enough, I seem to stop caring as much. Is it because maintenance gets tiring, or because I think it'll always be around even if I treat it roughly? Gives some weight to the saying "you don't know what you have until you lose it." :(

It's super cold tonight. January seems to think that it's December. I better bundle up in my blankets and head to bed early, since I have class and a lunch date with a friend tomorrow. Can't get sick now. After all, who will use all the tools that I'm maintaining if I don't take care of myself first? :)

- Mel

Monday, January 14, 2013

Keep Your Goals to Yourself



I ran across this video today by Derek Sivers entitled "Keep Your Goals to Yourself", which is exactly what it says on the tin. He claims through scientific study that proclaiming a goal out loud to the world (and possibly even to yourself) makes you less likely to actually do whatever it is you said you'd do.

Why is this? Apparently, just saying what you're planning to do tricks your mind into thinking you're already doing it. Much like hoarding objects for a specific hobby but never actually practicing said hubby, saying it out loud starts to feel like accomplishing something... when, really, you're not.

You know what? This hit the nail right on the head on my own attitude toward work and personal projects.

To be honest, I have done this a million times. I'll keep saying, "Oh, I should do this..." or "Oh, I'm gonna do that..." ... and never actually doing it. My mind is satisfied that I vocalized those goals, now I'm done for the day and can laze around- wait, what? That makes no sense! No, self! Do something!!

I was curious if actually being quiet about my goals would work, so for today, I kept some of what I was planning to do today to myself. While I didn't finish all of them, I managed to actually act upon at least three tasks, which is better than nothing. The funny part is, the one thing I said out loud that I'd do once I got home? ... I ended up not doing it, because just saying I'll do it became a substitute in my head for actually doing something about it!

Now I'm at a loss as to whether I should proclaim to the world that I will continue to keep things to myself on this public post, because I may just end up not doing it-- oh, drat. Let's backtrack and pretend that never happened, eh, friend? ;)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Plow Through Your Reading List

Have you ever been the kind of reader who just can't let go of any information s/he comes across? You know, the type who would skim magazines and cut out the articles they'd like to save for later? Cutting the best parts out of a magazine may be a decluttering tip, but if you don't read as fast as you save, you'll end up hoarding more than you could possibly ever read, even if you had all the time in the world.

In this day and age of the internet, it's becoming even easier to access information. You don't even have to bring out the scissors, because all you have to do to save an article is click a button. You can end up going through site after site, attracted by the title of an article that piques your interest, pressing "Read Later" again and again... Before you know it, your application of choice will be bursting with more text than you know what to do with!

I admit that I am a recovering information hoarder. I have been through the "cut ALL the magazines!" phase, as well as the "buy ALL the books" one. I used to have a thousand bookmarks in my browser of super important information and reference, yet I never actually looked at most of them even once. Part of it is that accumulating information (or 'things') related to something you want to be becomes a way to pretend that you are becoming that person, or at least 'doing something about it.'

Really, you're not. Collecting does not make an artist, a writer, an athlete, or whatever you have in mind. Collecting and using them, then knowing when to let go of them, and actually acting on your goal, is what will turn you into the person you want to be.

Yet making a Read Later list is also a productivity tip so that you can focus on the task at hand and leave those interesting morsels of information for later. So how do you effectively manage your ever growing virtual list of Things to Read?

I came across The Impending Doom Machine concept earlier this week, as applied to reading lists. The basic idea is that you don't read any of the articles on Weekdays and instead save them for reading on the Weekend. Then, from Friday to Sunday, you can peruse your collection of articles for the week all you want. You can do it in one go or during breaks. The important thing is that by Monday, you have to clear your slate. That's right. You'll be forced to pick out the important articles, or the ones that you really wanna read. When you're done, you delete everything in your reading list by your deadline and start afresh.

"But... but... all that information!" you might be thinking. "What if I miss something important?!"

Don't worry about it. With how much new information is being created, processed, and shared every day from every single stream you could think of (Facebook, Twitter, art sites, special interest sites, etc.), if you tried to read every single thing, you'll only end up frustrated. It's a losing battle. Instead, think of the internet like a stream that you can dip your toe in once in a while. You don't want to stay there forever, though, do you? (No, really. You don't wanna become a prune, do you?)

I set this Machine in action today to cull my own reading list, thinking it wouldn't take me very long. Five hours later, I had finally conquered over a hundred articles I had kept hidden in my browser's Read Later tab for so long! That definitely forced me to skip some bookmarks, and to refrain from saving too many articles in the future. Now, I can't say for sure that this is totally effective, as this is only the first week I have implemented it, but I'll continue using it to help me re-evaluate how I spend my time.

Will you use up all your time to read every little bit of information that swims your way, or will you spend your time wisely to pick out only the juicy ones that actually will help you in your personal goals? Good luck and make wise choices on your continuous quest for knowledge! :)

- Mel

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Follow Our Doodle a Day Project!


I just posted the latest entry to the blog for our project called Doodle a Day. It's exactly what it says on the tin: it is a personal challenge that I have decided to embark on with my friend, Mika, to draw every single day and not worry so much about our work.

I've been in a bad artist's rut for the past few years, and since I want to delve more seriously into becoming an artist (freelance or wherever life takes me), I better make up for lost time, and I better get used to drawing a lot again. So far, I've been able to meet my quota of at least one doodle a day, but hopefully by practicing frequently I will be able to do more than one sketch in a day, and perhaps finished art every few days.

The journey to re-learning art begins slowly but surely.

Please feel free to follow our progress on Tumblr!

Friday, January 11, 2013

New Year, New Shirt, New Hair Cut



Finally got a long-overdue haircut. Hello, short hair. :) I've had this hairstyle for about a year and a half now. I won't be stopping anytime soon. It makes me feel very confident, as does this new polo I'm wearing! My mother picked it out and got it for me last Sunday. It feels nice to have something that can be both casual and semi-formal wear. This haircut and clothes make me feel more comfortable in my own skin. I kind of want to have a few more polos when I can spare my resources. I'm picky because I can't afford to waste money or living space.

The last time I bought myself any new clothes was in late 2009. I didn't even realize it had been that long. I have maybe five white shirts with graphic prints that I cycle through, maybe two-three pink collared shirts, and a black psuedo-hoodie shirt that my boyfriend gifted me last Christmas. I now have a new blue-and-white striped shirt I just got this past holiday season from his family. If I own it, I was probably given it. :) (Thank you, you generous people, you. ♥)

Picking my own clothes is kind of a feeling that still feels new and foreign to me. My wardrobe had always been laid out and chosen by my mother ever since I was young. Sure, she gives me choices, but I haven't ever really gone out and shopped for clothes on my own, without anyone looking over what I've chosen. My reasons for resisting buying any new shirt for almost four years?

Partly "eh, when I lose weight", "eh, when I have money", and "oh god, I don't even have a proper closet to put my clothes in." Such is life. No, I didn't lose weight. No, I didn't necessarily get much in the way of moolah, and haha, I still don't have a proper closet, but at least my mom does. If she's happy, I'm happy. But gosh, it feels soooo goood to reward myself after several years of holding off from spending on unnecessary things...

Some of my friends might say minimalism is bleak and boring, but it doesn't have to be taken to the extreme. You know what? What I learned from several years of self-restraint and discipline is that when you actually do decide to get yourself something as a reward, it feels a thousand times more satisfying than getting random things willy-nilly just because you can.

Next on the wishlist: new, comfortable pajamas that actually fit me. I'm planning to decorate a new home-made coin bank as we speak...

- Mel

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Sleep Schedules are Hard

Unfortunately, when I got home yesterday, I could only stay awake a few more hours before I fell asleep. I woke up later than usual today. Darn! Maybe I can try waking up early again tomorrow. I really did enjoy being up before everyone else was, enjoying the silence and the dark sky outside. It was surreal to watch the sun go up while I exercised.

I've always had some trouble with time management. I make good with it when I'm just starting out, but maintaining it is always the difficult part. I think I'll be a lot more stubborn this 2013 with punctuality... I've started out with always meeting my partner, Aiken, on time for our dates. Of course, this should apply to other people I meet up with, too. :)

- Mel

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Actually Did Wake Up, Go Figure

To be precise, instead of taking a short nap like I had intended, I accidentally fell asleep for several hours in the evening. To nobody's surprise, it caused me to be unable to fall asleep on my usual bedtime. I "got up" at around 5:27am, but unlike all the other nights where I feel deprived of sleep, I actually feel pretty awake.

I've been thinking of tackling my personal anxiety and jogging around our community in the morning, but it was still too dark for me to go out. Intending to pursue another personal goal for the nth time, I pulled out the Wii Fit Balance Board from under my bed, dusted it off, and turned on the Wii so I could put the Wii Fit game in.

My Wii Fit game was nowhere to be seen. Dang. Someone wants me to keep my curvy, chubby figure.

On the flip side, now that adds motivation for another Goal in the Horizon: continue decluttering the house so that I can find my fitness game. I settled for Wii Sports, instead. I suck at Wii Tennis now. Now count how many times I said Wii. Wheeeeee! (That last word doesn't count.)

I've been interested in getting Zumba for the Wii for a while now, but I think I should make the other stuff a habit before I commit to something like that. Speaking of which, I have got to nab my Stepmania song files from my external drive in Makati. Gotta make use of that old dance pad, assuming it still works.

That's my morning so far. I feel like so much has happened even if hardly anything happened. That's the power of having lots of time on your hands by waking up earlier. Today is also my first day to go back to graduate school after the Christmas break. Hope I can adjust well enough to tackling my classes and personal projects, plus self-improvement.

Got a date with Plato, Hocrates, and a slew of other philosophers. Later!

- Mel

Monday, January 7, 2013

Wake Up in the Morning

I've been working on waking up earlier since forever. I've managed to get my body clock to recognize 8am as "wake up!" time, but I still manage to doze off after that. This is hard, but I want to do this.

Yesterday, Aiken (my partner) and I jogged a lot earlier than we usually do, and we were both pleasantly surprised at how we still had so much time left to spend to together.

I once tried a writing tip where I woke up at around 4am in the morning and wrote a couple of pages worth of prose. It was hardly even 10am and I had accomplished so much.

I want that feeling again. That feeling of finishing so many things so early, with plenty of time left to enjoy the rest of the day.

In that light, it was a great coincidence that I recently learned about Benjamin Franklin's schedule.

Image is from shawnblanc.net. Here is their post about it if you want to learn more about it. :)
I'm thinking of blocking out certain times of the day for myself, too. Work time. Play time. Get ready for bed time. That sort of thing. I'll figure out what works for me, and will share it with you guys if it helps me be more productive. :)

- Mel

Journal a Day? Journal a Week?

Hello, folks!

Some of you may have known me as the girl who went around with the Spanish word for "day" as her name. If you don't, that's perfectly all right. In fact, I want to start over again. :)

My name is Mel, and I'm an artist and writer from the Philippines. I'm currently taking up an MA in Creative Writing at the University of the Philippines, Diliman. I've been blogging ever since I was... gosh, maybe 11 or 12. That's a long time! This probably isn't the first time I'm making a public, casual blog about the everyday goings-on in my life, but this will be the first time I'll be doing it as an individual who has learned a lot over a decade of life in this world. :)

Part of the reason I started this blog on an impulse is that I want to practice my blog writing, and I want to do it more often. I did start another blog that talks about the concepts of minimalism, but I miss being able to just chat about how my day went. I miss interacting with and getting to know new people through blogging, too.

My areas of interest include art, writing, and video games, but I talk about all sorts of things. I like to talk. It's a great way to exercise the mind and bond with other people at the same time (through the internet, somehow! With magic!)

Nice to meet you! Here's to a good 2013. :)














- Mel